N the four at play !
it seems it coming again. but at least its not that worst like that time?
that time i didn't even receieve any calls and messages from her.
now, its just no more messages, calls not that often, no more night calls, no more frequent messages, no more, no more?
im talking to irah now.
im telling her how i feels, how terrible am i !
shes scolding me now. oh damn?
she asked me to giveup, oh cmon. its not easy, if i could, long time ago i did.
i even planned what to get for her birthday, i asked her friends to help me along. well well well.
God is playing prank on me i think? bringing her to me, pulling her back, bringing her near to me again. and yet pulling her back.
people asked about how things going on between me and her. WELL, i cant really say, i dont even know whats happening.
HAH, i had to think positive, no credits on her phone, she's busy, she's sleeping, she didn't see the messages, she didn't see the missed calls, she didn't notice, she's not feeling well, she's in the low mood, she's need some silents. this and that.
sometime i know sometime it was excuses from her, i believed her cause i love her more than life but will my love ever reach her? well, thats some obvious question which i know, you people should know too, im like asking for permission to smoke in school. well. you readers should get what i mean.
WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
things will get better no matter what. time, the best remedy.
anyway, shes having a high fever, 38.8degree. so damn high. im adding on loads of stress to her i guess. perhaps, or rather she doesn't even care. HAH.
take care girl ! have sufficient rest and get well soon. ( only if youre reading the blog. )
im trying to be positive like you said ! (:
i will hang on there no matter what, be it the ending be good or bad, be nice or hurting. appreciate it, or not. doesn't matter.
as long as i know, i love her, real deep. thats some thoughts that could sooth my feelings.
bye, im off to sleep. takecare.
the four at play;